Manifesto Time.

Its crazy. I'm crazy. I mean, if I drank more and did drugs, I'd be at the Britney-shaving-her-head stage right now.
OK.

Vitamin Routine in Morning - get it in order - take every morning.
Food - healthy - small portions - fish occasionally - limit carbs - more veggies.
Kombucha every day.
AT LEAST 8 hours of sleep a night.
Only watch tivo-ed TV. And only when nothing more important to do. (un-tivo-ed TV OK if nothing to do or watch)
DO WORK.
GET PLACES ON TIME.
TAKE SUBWAY.
CLEAN APARTMENT.
WALK STELLA OFTEN.

Just generally, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER WOMAN!!!

Hey anyone who reads this, although I don't think anyone does.

I haven't blogged in a while. Everything is going pretty well lately - maybe that's why I haven't blogged as much. I have a semi-blind date on Sunday - I met him at a party and he asked my friend for my phone number afterwards. It's semi-blind because I met a lot of people at that party and I don't really remember who he was. But he seems nice on the phone and my friend says he's good so we'll see. I'll let you know.

As far as the tattooed boy from my building, I don't know what's going on there. Nothing really at all. He's still really nice and says hi when I see him and he's still ridiculously cute, but nothing has happened. I fear he might be gay. He is VERY well-dressed. Maybe now that I have another date something will happen - it always happens that way doesn't it?

I've been eating less and I think healthier and I've lost about 5 pounds!! Yay me!! I have some kind of gross itchy rash on my shoulder - but I'm seeing the dermatologist on Monday. And I want to get bangs sometime soon. Maybe I'll stop writing and call right now to make an appointment with my hairdresser.

Later.

Deconstruction by Aexander McQueen

This is AMAZING

I'm feeling like an idiot tonight. Dreamy boy might be gay, I don't know how to talk to him , I feel fat and lame. And like I'll never meet someone because I never go out and when I do go out I can't talk to people and I feel dumb.
Sometimes I think I would be a catch for the right guy, if only I knew how to talk to them or meet them or deal with them at all.

I just need to figure out a way to get to know them well enough that I feel comfortable enough to show them the boots. then they'll be hooked.

I am officially really horrible at small talk. I rode in the elevator with him and I feel like I seemed stupid and uninterested. I totally have a crush on him and I don't know how to handle myself or what to do so help things move forward.

I have also been eating horribly and I really need to get on top of that and try so hard to eat healthier and even exercise.

Starting tomorrow I am going to really try to get on top of it.
Muselix and soy yogurt for breakfast.
Salad/Veggie based lunch. Limited Carbs.
Veggie Based Dinner.
Lots of water, 1 kombucha, 2 ounces of wheatgrass (preferably in the morning), 1 bottle green tea.
Step it up Calla. Maybe you'll have more confidence to talk to the boy if you get your own shit more together.

Mondays are officially his day off - I saw him this morning on the later side because I went in late to work. And he has tattoos. Yum.

Moo hurt her back on Friday night/Saturday morning. She woke up screaming in pain. I spent almost all day Saturday at the emergency vet to find out that she may have a slipped disc or she may be hurting from hip displasia or from her knee ligaments. I think its her back but I guess I don't know for sure. She 's been taking pain killers but has still been really screaming sometimes when she moves a certain way. This afternoon I got a different kind of pain killer from her regular vet and she seem SO much better. Such a relief. It was one of the hardest weekends ever. Very little sleep, lots of crying on my part, lots of screaming on hers.

Its so hard to see someone you love that much hurting as much as she was. She seems so much happier now that the new painkillers have kicked in and I am so much happier too.

I'll update later if I run into the boy later. I really hope I do. Especially now that I know he has tattoos...

So it seems I only see him on Monday nights. And I only saw him briefly this time, but just making eye contact with him makes me smile for a good 20 minutes. Looking him in the eye is just so damn sexy.
This time he was going somewhere at 11:30 at night - which makes me a little worried so I am telling myself that Tuesday is his day off so Monday is the one night he goes out late. Because otherwise he is probably sort of a player/partier and I'd rather he wasn't.

I wish he would just ask me for my number or to hang out.

In other news, since all I've been talking about lately is this dreamy boy, I have been trying to eat healthier but I keep failing and bingeing on random shit like pretzel chips dipped in tofu sour cream. That's about as bad for you as vegan food can get beside french fries. I really need to watch it. Who cares if I order from the same vegan food place every night if it keeps me healthy - plus they have so much variety I can eat different things most nights although not all of it is really that healthy. There are a few things that I should eat every night. Plus I need to figure out some good way to keep myself exercising besides weekly factoring.

Speaking of which I am totally going to think of the boy during factor this week. yum.