So it seems I only see him on Monday nights. And I only saw him briefly this time, but just making eye contact with him makes me smile for a good 20 minutes. Looking him in the eye is just so damn sexy.
This time he was going somewhere at 11:30 at night - which makes me a little worried so I am telling myself that Tuesday is his day off so Monday is the one night he goes out late. Because otherwise he is probably sort of a player/partier and I'd rather he wasn't.

I wish he would just ask me for my number or to hang out.

In other news, since all I've been talking about lately is this dreamy boy, I have been trying to eat healthier but I keep failing and bingeing on random shit like pretzel chips dipped in tofu sour cream. That's about as bad for you as vegan food can get beside french fries. I really need to watch it. Who cares if I order from the same vegan food place every night if it keeps me healthy - plus they have so much variety I can eat different things most nights although not all of it is really that healthy. There are a few things that I should eat every night. Plus I need to figure out some good way to keep myself exercising besides weekly factoring.

Speaking of which I am totally going to think of the boy during factor this week. yum.

I haven't seen him once since Monday night. I'm starting to give up on the idea of this ever happening.

I have been wanting to go out more lately - which I think is a good thing except for the fact that I don't have a ton of friends so I can't always find someone to do something with when I feel like doing something. It sucks more than not feeling like doing anything at all.
I guess I should try to make some new friends except that I don't really like very many people. I get really strong instinctual feelings about people the first time I meet them and I can tell if I'm going to like them or not. For example, I always hated this one friend of my ex's from the first time I met him and for four years my ex would say "oh no he's such a great guy don't hate him" So I tried my best not to but I still did, and then about a month ago I ran into my ex and found out that he is no longer friends with this particular person because it was discovered that he had a six month long affair with his best friend's girl. Suffice it to say my instincts are usually right.
So I guess I need to find some people who I get good signals from. Like the boy. If only I could run into him again.

Every time I go out hoping I'll run into him, I don't. The time I saw him yesterday was the one time I had given up on seeing him that day.
I wish he'd asked for my phone number. Is it bad that he didn't?
Well, I guess he knows where I live.
I'm totally gettting too excited about this after only one time actually speaking to him. I need to chill out BAD.

Update: I didn't see him on my late night dog walk either. Sad. I hope I see him tomorrow.

I have a big crush.
I've been smiling and saying hi to this boy who lives in my building for a week or so now and tonight I ran into him and talked to him for a few minutes. He's real cute and seemed very cool.
I hope I came across okay - I've never been great at small talk.
I can't stop smiling.
Is that weird?