Deconstruction by Aexander McQueen

This is AMAZING

I'm feeling like an idiot tonight. Dreamy boy might be gay, I don't know how to talk to him , I feel fat and lame. And like I'll never meet someone because I never go out and when I do go out I can't talk to people and I feel dumb.
Sometimes I think I would be a catch for the right guy, if only I knew how to talk to them or meet them or deal with them at all.

I just need to figure out a way to get to know them well enough that I feel comfortable enough to show them the boots. then they'll be hooked.

I am officially really horrible at small talk. I rode in the elevator with him and I feel like I seemed stupid and uninterested. I totally have a crush on him and I don't know how to handle myself or what to do so help things move forward.

I have also been eating horribly and I really need to get on top of that and try so hard to eat healthier and even exercise.

Starting tomorrow I am going to really try to get on top of it.
Muselix and soy yogurt for breakfast.
Salad/Veggie based lunch. Limited Carbs.
Veggie Based Dinner.
Lots of water, 1 kombucha, 2 ounces of wheatgrass (preferably in the morning), 1 bottle green tea.
Step it up Calla. Maybe you'll have more confidence to talk to the boy if you get your own shit more together.

Mondays are officially his day off - I saw him this morning on the later side because I went in late to work. And he has tattoos. Yum.

Moo hurt her back on Friday night/Saturday morning. She woke up screaming in pain. I spent almost all day Saturday at the emergency vet to find out that she may have a slipped disc or she may be hurting from hip displasia or from her knee ligaments. I think its her back but I guess I don't know for sure. She 's been taking pain killers but has still been really screaming sometimes when she moves a certain way. This afternoon I got a different kind of pain killer from her regular vet and she seem SO much better. Such a relief. It was one of the hardest weekends ever. Very little sleep, lots of crying on my part, lots of screaming on hers.

Its so hard to see someone you love that much hurting as much as she was. She seems so much happier now that the new painkillers have kicked in and I am so much happier too.

I'll update later if I run into the boy later. I really hope I do. Especially now that I know he has tattoos...